Wow, so I found out what was wrong with Will the other day. Turns out, after a night of not sleeping, he has an ear infection. I was wary about putting him on antibiotics but its seems to have gotten worse and not better. So I went ahead and started him on them. I'm hoping that they work. They most definitely did not work with Isabelle, thus the reason we had tubes put in her ears last year. I just hate that he is sick.

On another note, Michael and I did get the chance to watch Fireproof the other night. That movie is wonderful! I cannot recommend it enough, especially for married couples. It was really a life changing movie. After we watched it, Michael pulled me up into his lap and apologized to me for treating me badly. Not that he has treated me badly, the movie just made him believe that he had not treated me as he should have been. On top of that it really made him re-evaluate a lot of things. I can see a lot of changes occurring in him and they are definitely good changes! I can tell you this though, that movie makes you see that the center of your marriage should always be Jesus Christ and God. It makes you see how the love you have for your spouse should be unconditional, just like God's love for us is unconditional. I can't tell you how many times in the past I have made my love conditional. Michael and I went through a difficult period. It's hard not to when you have two babies less than a year apart. So many times, I just about gave up. But God did not give up on us. I don't know. It was just a really touching, wonderful movie and it gives me hope for marriages today. Marriage has become such a thing of convience for so many people. Its so easy to get a divorce when things are not going the way that you want them to. I did it. And while I am very happy with my life now, I do regret that things ended the way they did. I know that I could have worked harder at my first marriage. I know I could have respected him more. I have actually apologized to him for many of my mistakes. I know that God would never have been a part of that marriage though (long story). But that doesn't mean that I couldn't have handled things differently. That's why I am so determined to make my marriage work now. My vows to Michael were more than just a contract, they were a convenant. We are actually talking about renewing our vows in a convenant ceremony. Convenant is for life... not until you are tired of someone. It means working through the tough times. I don't advocate staying with someone if they are abusive, but I do think that too often we bail out because we aren't getting a long. The fact is we rarely look at ourselves and see what it is the WE are doing wrong. We are quick to place the blame on the other person. I've done it. I've done it in my current marriage. But when I sit down and really pray and meditate on it, I can see my faults. I can see what I do wrong. I had to really learn how to respect the man that I am with. I had to learn that submitting (not becoming his slave mind you!) is not a bad thing. Its ok to let the man be head. Its ok to let him protect you and make decisions for you. I'm not helpless. I'm not incapable of standing up for myself. But I understand that God made women and men different for a reason. It's those differences that make us unique, but at some point we have to come together and we have to find our individual roles in a marriage. And sometimes that means letting go of a little of our independence so that we can truly become one. I just think that marriage has become so trivilized and it is entered into so casually. When in reality it should be the most important decision of your life. Because after you make that decision, your marriage to your spouse should become the second most important relationship in your life (the first being your relationship to God).

We went to the Goodwill store today. I had to get me some more warm shirts to wear. While we were there we found a big, huge, plush chair for 16 dollars. It is perfect to go in our living room. We have closed off one part of our house, it was the part that had been added on and it had a bigger living room. The problem is that it was almost impossible to heat without running several heaters and the fireplace. So we shut that part off and are just living in the smaller, older part of the house. We needed some more seating in this living room though. Since it is smaller there really is only enough room for the couch and this chair I just bought. The chair will need to be recovered but I can do that easily. It is perfect for curling up next to the wood burning stove in! It's supposed to get pretty cold next week and may possibly snow... so this will be wonderful! I also found a set of full size sheets for my daughter's bed for 5 dollars. I'm gonna wash them with some bleach of course but you can't beat 5 dollars! I did also find my warm shirts! Of course they are big men's fleece shirts but they are only worn around the house! We don't really go anywhere anyway! I need to get some material to make curtains for the new/old living room. Whatever I can do to make it stay warm! We did get a window kit that allows you to basically shrink wrap your windows to keep the cold out. That should make the wood burning stove even more effective.

Well, I'm off. My mom is going to keep the kids tonight so Michael and I get a night to ourselves. That rarely happens so I'm going to make the most of it!